Just stop writing film review to make time for book review for one month which makes me already miss the time writing film review so much… I have just stopped for one month, why I remember that atmosphere this much as if I stopped it for years… I’m scared of abandoning it again this year because not only film and book review, there are still also too much thing I want to do. Writing review is just like an addiction. When you start it, you just want to do it for everything you spent time enjoying. It’s like re-create the world that you experienced again. Why recent time do I want to do this secondary step (re-create the world based on others’s world) but not primary step (create the world myself)? I even can’t understand. I start to afraid of not writing my own story anymore. To re-create or create, both of them takes a lot of time same same. After all, I accept my solitude condition to finish these things. But sometime, I… Well, even I’m so tired and want to sleep now, tonight I have to try to do a little bit to finish, even just a little part of them. Maybe, I can also give up to sleep.
不図、泣きたくなって… 寂しくて、悲しくて… でも、泣かないでください… 働いて続けてください…